caution with an act.

See you on the flip side.

2010-09-07T12:38:00.002+08:00

A whole new change.

Cangek!

2010-09-02T02:47:00.001+08:00

Hawhaw.

Sank kew!

2010-09-01T10:07:00.003+08:00

Monday night could have send me to hell straight and burn me clean. Hurt and torn apart, I was on the verge of giving up on my critique. It was almost a firm decision, one that is to be sealed and never be opened up again. I am really thankful for my friends, given the encouragement and support that they have pumped me up with. Special mentions to Joash, HuiShan & esp Muffs. I am in deep gratitude, I owe you guys a big one. *Spams Love* And critique goes on well, mildly surprised with the raving comments received. I did not manage to complete my preparation for my speech and was pretty glad that my effort of ditching the last attempt to inject more words in it, spurred on a positive effect of calmness. I developed a whole new persona at the very last minute, boosting all sorts of euphoria I could find in me. I knew that sugar rush from Kinder will worked. What more can my wheel of joy spins with my work being selected for exhibition. That was a complete shocker. A pinching moment that it dawned upon me that efforts will pay off for not giving up. Simply relieved. Just relieved.
Perseverance will bring you far and the strength to survive will be swelling fast.

it ain't just a simple love.

2010-08-28T21:12:00.005+08:00

And it's only the six.

2010-08-26T20:10:00.003+08:00

A concoction of PingPong Milo & TehTarik & Pulut Hitam.(YAY) Sitting on a tree trunk, with the smell of fresh grass and train tracks as we leave our buttprints when the sun sets in behind our backs.

Pitter Patter my heart goes.

2010-08-21T14:07:00.005+08:00

And We began with A Fish Story.

Driving through the deepest water.

2010-08-19T16:50:00.002+08:00

I realised you can never dictate things to go your way unless you pick up the courage to do so. It has been wishywashy, pretty much of a conflict of the positives and negatives but I am feeling like a teddy who just got hugged. Snuggled up and warm in the heart. To brave through this storm, required more than just love around but simply my own perseverance and positive mindset, accompanied with a generous heart to let things die down on its own. If only this stays, I'll be saint. It will be a matter of time, and I shall wait. Waiting, watching the pendulum swings and the minute hand ticks. The world spins on its axis and I am still on my feet. The tip of my index fingers and my thumb touched, while my eye peep through the geometrically magical ∆, seeming to feel like I've got the whole world in it. Age, comes with time.

When we were young and innocent.

2010-07-27T21:26:00.005+08:00

Dug from the deep blue ocean where the fishys dance and sing to The Wombats.

This is all I could do.

2010-07-27T21:25:00.002+08:00

Forgive me if this space is being more of a photo blog right now. Time does not permit chunky essays with a big fat kitkat. :{

Play Tofu: Egg White Ver.

2010-07-26T00:32:00.004+08:00

Guess who came during dinner today :)

We fold 'em and seal 'em up with a kiss.

2010-07-26T00:07:00.011+08:00

PaperCity @ Illuma. I swear Illuma is a new hangout for the Arts right now. Yay.

Do you know how it feels.

2010-07-11T01:17:00.002+08:00

Why do i get the feeling that the whole world's abandoning me. People ignoring my presence. i'm not yearning for attention here. I just want to get back the times we always shared. I really enjoy 'em. It was a tearful end.

Being what Best has yet to beat.

2010-07-03T23:20:00.002+08:00

Meet HuiShan, CheeSiang, Joemin, Isaac.

It didn't felt like what it was today.

2010-07-03T22:54:00.006+08:00

Photography Outing With the SD Kiddos. :D

See ya after school [term] ends.

2010-06-27T02:47:00.002+08:00

Tonight, tonight, I'm gonna take what's mine.
Tonight, tonight, under the bright neon light.
And if I have a way right out of here.
Tonight, tonight i'm gonna disappear.

2010-06-27T00:45:00.003+08:00

Let meh see. One day left to school and I have completed... Tons of Play, Immense of Cloud Watching & One Exercise of BettyEdwards. Oh boy, what an accomplishment. I think I may be complacent a little to begin with as my Fds grades are honestly making me grin from ear to ear. But ultimately, it's still the swine in me that's in full force. [I don't go oink though] Yes, i want to have to those sleepness nights, the caffine overdose and mind frenzy moments again, that's why I'm ditching all my work aside. [Hell to the no.] @_@ To caps tiredness further, my muscles have been aching up from camp. Though, needless to say, camp was all fun ;D not brilliant but brilliantly done. I need to make this big chunk of squishy up in my head to start working, pick up my pencils and draw till i surrender. The spaces need to be filled. All spaces need to be filled. My gawd, I sound like M.C Escher ._. My gawder, i'm actually referring myself to an artist. My gawdest, i'm actually thinking of art right now at 2plus in the morning. I've got to thank those stay-ups when rushing for deadlines that has gotten into me. :B I need my pencils. I lost my dearest set of pencils. And my cocky brain didnt remember to go get a new set despite spending hours in town today. Nice one Mad. Yay. I'm deader than the fish for sashimi!

It's a day late.

2010-06-20T13:14:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Daddeee! You are da King Pops :D

The life of a sadist.

2010-06-16T21:09:00.007+08:00

Do you know. How this very place suck the soul out of me. I could feel my lungs being squeezed and compressed till I'm being emptied out of air. I need air. Gasp. I can't breathe. You let go and I swallowed the air like a hungry wolf, my chest's expanding and contracting like a spasmodic machine, falling in and out of pace. The brain's pushing. Thumping hard against the thick neat skull. I could feel my blood gushing through every arteries and capillaries. My forehead, reaching an impressive boiling point. The beast in me yelled out. Weeping hard, I yearned to rip myself apart and demolish every single building block that I am made up of. It was a hard task. All I could do is to cry it my heart out. Flip myself inside out. And wrung me out real dry. Evil thoughts creeped up to my mind boldly. It was a far cry from swearing the shit ass out of a person. It was actions that were deadly for one to carry out. I know all I had to do was endure. How long more? How exactly long more? Can this place hold my sanity any further? Home only takes place in the company of friends. Family whom we truly cherish and love one another.

MOCHINESS FTW.

2010-06-07T21:52:00.004+08:00

I. Feel. So. Bloated. Right. Now. I. want. to. shit. everything. out. Hahahahhhahh.
If you ever want to dine at Sakura, do not try finding the place around Clementi. 'Cause it's situated on top of a bloody hill, somewhere near WestCoast. And the service sucks big time. My money could have been better invested in a good big piece of unagi and sashimeee. Mews. Tonight is the first time of my life I've ever been to west coast. (Y). Got lost. Got thirsty. Got starving.
but dinner was friggin' funneh throughout with Jessica, LimTing, Fah, Marcus, Joash & Ashri :D
And GuanFei just entertained me by linking me a "How to make a Sandwich" vid on youtube. Loveit!
Finally after 12378373 years, I can catch a movie in town tmr. Hope I can pass off as an 18 to sneak into Sex&TheCity2! Heheeh.

AGARAGAR X JELLY.

2010-05-30T15:52:00.008+08:00

Sunday Morning. Got my fingertips all oily & greasy while fixing my damn bike. Thank god for my dear canto-macho neighbour to help put everything to a better state. :D I want a new bike:{ Puma/MiniCooper's are so awesomestxz. Dead drop gorgeous and a hole burnt in the pocket. My uncle just told me he wants to get a BMW Bike. 5K++, .____. wth luh, I can buy almost four bicycles installed with motors alr. I think my dad's importing them to SELL anw. Woah.
Sunday Afternoon. Made ma Jellies. Heheh. Raw Sugar+ Water+ n teaspoons of Strawberry Colouring and one/two pathetic NataDeCoCos in each lovelies. There were only one/two cause My mum stoled them for her Agars and left me with so little to sulked on. Mehhs. My Jellies are in the cutest shade of orange. Not really purrfect as they have a tad un-noticable unven base but looking sexy overall still. :B My next experiment will be Rainbow Cupcakes! But I need a helper, a helper's kitchen to mess up with & a helper's OVEN. I DO have an oven, it's just spoilt due it's ancientness. Heheh.
Sunday Evening. Cycling! & rush for deadlines. @_@

WEEK 7 is gonna be such a hell fer me. If it ain't hell, they ain't happy.

Chances - Five For Fighting

2010-05-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

Give me just one?

More than one heart could contain.

2010-05-28T23:13:00.007+08:00

Everything that I could wish for again. XX.

Hi SONIA, I'M FEEDING THIS INTO YOUR EYES ONLY :D

2010-05-27T21:01:00.003+08:00

"National Service in SIngapore should also include GIrls"

National Service, we all know, is about maintaining Singapore’s defense. It is something more than guns and bullets; it has a social function that is to create cohesion and a national identity.

The idea of applying conscription on girls is rather questionable as some of the most obvious concerns are physical. In truth, the female skeletal system is less dense, and more prone to breakages. The Center for Military Readiness stated that “Female soldiers are, on average, shorter and smaller than men, with 45-50% less upper body strength and 25-30% less aerobic capacity, which is essential for endurance”. This shows that women are less capable in strenuous military activities as compared to the men and also, they are disadvantaged in an involuntary way.

There is a secondary concern that romantic relationships between men and women on the front lines could disrupt a unit's fighting capability and a fear that a high number of women would deliberately become pregnant in order to escape combat duties. Furthermore, the women might be dependent on the men when love occurs and when the men would want to be protective over their partners too. This would then defeat the purpose of enlisting women into the national service in the first place.

However, girls should be enlisted in national service, as ultimately, it will be a training ground for them to build up their physical and mental ability. With the female population toughening up as well, the nation would be stronger and more united as a whole in face of any threats.
As of 2006, countries that were drafting women into military service included China, Eritrea, Israel, Libya, Malaysia, North Korea, Peru, Taiwan, Egypt and Tunisia. Among these countries, Israel is one of the countries with the best military defense in the world. How is this so? Even though Israel is a small country, it has a very good military defense because women are also required to do national service. By implementing this rule, Israel managed to get as much manpower as possible.

The concern for female being physically weaker can be addressed by modifying the training to suit the needs of the women. For example, in the National Physical Fitness Award Scheme (NAPFA), there are different standard requirements for girls and boys to achieve the same grade but it is still compulsory for both genders to participate in to test their fitness level. The same concept can be applied on National Service for women. Although the standards are lower but it will be still challenging towards a woman and it would be able to train them with essential skills need for survival.

By allowing girls to join the National Service, it is also in recognition of gender equality. Women are trusted to be potentially capable as the fellow men, and there could be more credit given to them in the employment sector.
Despite the advantages of girls being in National Service, I object that National Service in Singapore should be made mandatory to girls. In the ever-evolving, modern world, technology has made its advancements to greater heights that one in ten years before now could never have imagined. I believed that men are tenacious and formidable in nature, and with the help of modern technology, men are well equipped to defend our homeland.

Besides, the percentage of filling girls into active combat roles is actually very low due to the gifted weaker physical strength. Therefore, I find that it is redundant to involve girls in National Service when girls would only hold substandard positions when faced with a stronger force (the men). When both genders are due for conscription, it would also lower Singapore’s GDP further, thus slowing down the growth of the country at the same time. I feel that as long as the female population is mentally prepared and are well aware what actions to take in times of a crisis, National Service should just adhere with the men.

D;

2010-05-16T23:54:00.001+08:00

Should I cry 'cause life's being so unfair to me right now.

Just ring me up, so that your voice can be my lullaby.

2010-05-14T23:10:00.006+08:00

This ain't a lie. I'm tired.
My gawd. Brickboy is kinda addictive. Kept me till 0530 yesterday, it's such a wonder that my soul could stay by me all day today. My leg muscles are aching & cramping up after frisbee training, though we didn't even really do much. [I could really yawn there.] FDS put me through hell once more, by needing another mock up as mine was too small. :{ First sports comm. meeting was rather pleasant today despite the heavy role of being placed in charge of Sports Fiesta, together with HuiShan. I wasn't really worried about the many commitments I have, it's just that I'm mentally exhausted. But being so, it could also result in myself being inconsistent consequently.
To top everything off, I'll be away for Tennis Camp tmr. So buh-bye to my BDC hmk. Fresh new environment, fresh new faces, more names, more memory, more energy needed. How can I boost my energy level without touching that shiny blue can which gives me wings or the ever seductive aroma of cocoa beans? My, I need to let it out. Lax. Lax. Lax.

not feelin' good, my dear.

2010-05-11T20:00:00.003+08:00

Screwed oral presentation test today. I am getting so down and out of mood recently :[
I miss friends that were once so close badly :[ Or maybe it's partially my blame to take for not reconnecting with 'em. I'll make time. I will.
[Yaye, can meet my hubby, Shan at HTI tmr:D Imtty!]

I am the younger one.

2010-05-09T20:29:00.003+08:00

Decided to dressed matchingly for Happy Mudder's Day. Bought that dress fer sissy & vice versa. Hahahahh. Xoxo.

This time, I need more than a rubber ring.

2010-05-04T21:07:00.003+08:00

~~HELP. I need help. How can I develop this sketch. I'm planning to use complementary colours on this one. Any ideas?~~

So much for hoping for more.

2010-05-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

SDC called. I'm in sports. I'm in comm. I'm feeling numb. Numb in way that I don't particularly have any feelings/emotions towards it. Hehhh. Okay, maybe there's this little parcel of happiness, and a pinch of accomplishment. So am I in some kind of delusion? I think I may be the only weird one who's not going whoo-hoo over such news. I'm wondering maybe it's a fear that I can't suffice to the responsibilities planted ahead or I can't live up to expectations. Gosh, I think my inner perfectionism is killing me.
Forget about that. My, Monday Today had my cheeks hurt so much. From SuYue's swimming pond story in the morning to LimTing's profession of love for D and Shafiqah's highly contagious laughter, Monday had kickstart the week off well. Oh, how I just love Class52! I really can't bring myself to the thought of us being seperated after Sem1 :[ I can't bear to leave 52Awesome. (although cliques are already forming) heehee.
My confidence level in BasicDrawingClass has just surged:D Am very pleased. As for the first week, I was completely demoralised with my drawing:[ My first drawing look like some fish shit and I was thinking I will be so screwed for the rest of BDC, but no, the following weeks had me enjoying class very much. { & I love charcoal drawing! } Fyi, I still hate VAS. And LBL is still a bitch. :P

Twoday is the day.

2010-05-01T12:25:00.005+08:00

This is my essay for FoundationDesignStudio Class. Have not written one for a very long time and this is what I am producing after four months of brain-rottingness. I think the linkage between paragraphs is a lil' awkward(?) and some of my sentences don't run smooth. I am still satisfied with it though :]

"
Straight Lines are Boring. Curved Lines are Interesting.

Lines are everywhere, though seemingly insignificant, they hold the wonders of simplicity. They are an enormously useful and versatile graphic device that is made to function in both visual and verbal ways. For lines, it is not necessarily an artificial creation of the artist or designer, it exists in nature as a structural feature such as branches, or as surface design like the striping on a zebra.
It is agreeable to a certain extent that straight lines are boring. A straight line has less contrast and it usually creates a monotonous effect that instills a sense of dullness when one looks at it. Besides, the route of a straight line is undeniably predictable and jejune, it does not stimulate our brain. On the contrary, straight lines can exist in horizontal, vertical and diagonal forms. In which horizontal lines could mean repose and rest, vertical ones being vitality and strength, and the diagonals suggest a feeling of movement or direction. Also in mathematical terms, Y= mx+c tells us that a straight line’s gradient can vary. This allows straight lines to combine and form shapes like the triangle.
On the other hand, curved lines are interesting as it has more contrast and it fluctuates, making it dynamic and active. In addition, a curve line can function independently, for example the drawing of a circle. However, curvy lines need planning and control. This could be seen in people with curly hair who want to straighten them for better management and drivers on a winding road, applying an extra effort on the steering wheel and those securable brakes.
As M.C. Escher had said, “ A line is a dot going for a walk”. Although the dot may walk straight or veer off from its straight path, it is still a path taken, a line drawn and a picture created. With lines in unity, a picture tells a thousand words.

"

Mew on this.

2010-05-01T10:05:00.006+08:00

Down with the second week. And it's still the usual past midnight sleeps, caffeine abuse and multiple pencil shavings. But still, I enjoy every single moment of it despite the gift of dark eye circles & head nodding times in class. Or probably it's the vast amount of homework that is driving me to the brink of insanity to actually make such words spill out of my mouth. Heh. I certainly hope I will have good time management as with the sign-ups of tennis & frisbee, I doubt I'll be able to sit around and watch the fan spins. Otherwise, I will have to forgo the days out with my dearest friends :[

There's a little conflict that's occurring in the class recently. Friction between (almost) everyone with you-know-hu. Honestly, I've been getting annoyed much. So much that I could shoot "You Suck" straight in the person's face. I mean why try to be someone when you don't even look like one or worst, not even one. Take my advice dear, stop prancing around and (intentionally) step on people's nerves. It ain't making the atmosphere any livelier. Incidentally, I found the king of the weirdest of the weirds. Weird in a very unpleasant way.

Anyway, I'm currently enjoying OralComm, GraphicComm & ONOW. Modules which don't make me doze off. Hee. Though HTI is a lil' dry, it's making me think in depth and I like it too for that. OHH. I take my words back for not knowing the Art Friend at Bras Basah (SP?). Kinda forget that I've been there years before, it didn't provoke much memory that's why. That complex is getting much hyped now with new shops. The Popular there is deliciously good-looking! Heheh. I'm gonna chiong through most of my work today so as to try and make time to be able to go out tmr. I'm pondering when was the last time I had seriously shop/catch a movie/chill for fun w/o thinking of work. I should have a KitKat. ^-^

On a random note, I would like to share my yummy breakfast while doing this late morning post. Green Beancurd :D!

2010-04-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

I have so many reading materials which includes, story books, library books & magazines fresh from japan! Ah~ this is paradise.

Part of me.

2010-04-11T15:43:00.006+08:00

Bye Holidays. Till we meet again.

CLASS ONE.

2010-04-09T16:55:00.003+08:00

DVMD/FT/1A/01
Finally, after days of watching the sun fall and the moon rise, school's gonna goddamn start on monday :D! have been anticipating for it since xx week/month/centuries. so Hallelujah. The people i've met in SD camp are naturally nice, and I really can't wait to know more in FOW. As much as I hate icebreakers & those cheesy self-intros, we can't all the escape the great help for making friends eh? & ! Some guy from NP actually befriended me 'cause he likes my style of dressing, like wtf? Lol, way funny & how adorable of him. Plus, I think I'm still gonna keep my habit of bringing my lunchbox to school, it's way healthier and cuter ^-^ hawhaw.

ACJC's FUNORAMA'10

2010-03-29T09:44:00.007+08:00

Hot (day).

By the sweet toothed fairy.

2010-03-26T09:42:00.003+08:00

Bakerzin's Vanilla Cream with Strawberry Basil Jelly Macaron. Yumz.

I am troubled. Yelp.

2010-03-17T09:52:00.002+08:00

I'm beginning to think seriously if I have attitude problems. Honestly, the way I treat my friends & even strangers is a far cry from the cold, heartless attitude I've developed towards my family. I'm stern, matured and almost frighteningly, emotionally overdriven at times in the house. I have my mum to blame. She makes a living hell for me. Living in the house, was like being a black sheep of the family. I was discriminated (by her), biased against and forced to work like a slave. Being not with my family for three years ever since I was zero (okay, maybe the zero part is exaggerating. BUT.. ) could probably explained the distant unfriendliness we've shared. And because of her, I often have no relish in family business. When the other members are (feigning) concerned for me, I would be piss and turned off, mentally demanding an explanation for all the sufferings I have endured. Maybe it's because of the much intense yearning for a proper family and/or life. I may sound like a bitch here who's complaining when she's so well-fed and not handicapped in any ways. But the past experience has been such a harrowing one, I could instantly burst into a mad(hatter) if I lose total control of my nerves. The complications of my situation has evolved me into such a soul-less creature, I'm questioning about my true character/personality. And no, I am not a hypocrite for sure. [Sometimes, I think I think too much.] Probably so. I am concluding. That I do not have attitude problems. It was circumstances that churned out the negative attitude.

Hey, maybe I should start a biography someday. Neh, maybe I won't. It's too painful.

Medical check-up results. Ha.

2010-03-16T13:55:00.001+08:00

Hi. I'm Madeleine. I'm 170 & 56.2kg. Vision of 6/6.

Comfort.

2010-03-08T16:55:00.004+08:00

I will get this inked once all the bitterness has ended. Yes, in the exact same font. :}

Vamoosh.

2010-03-08T16:34:00.003+08:00

I should really go F21 someday and check out their accessories section throughly.
I should stop growing out this mop and get a new snip.
I don't know if I should go to that lunch date with ShiYang...
I need to get my medical check up done soon.
I'll be missing dad who's going China this wednesday };
I might be going overseas sometime this month. (Bangkok please. But it's hell 37C ++!)
I don't want to fall ill. ( There's a disease spreading 'bout in the office :<)

I could drown the world with my tears now. And It's only in the Morning.

2010-03-05T10:01:00.002+08:00

Tell me this will end. No?

5th March.

2010-03-03T12:52:00.011+08:00

My Favourite Character! The Cheshire Cat~
I can't wait! ++ Johnny Depp & Anne Hathaway! I love everything about Alice in Wonderland. From the graphics, costumes, characters to the makeup! Splendid :] I would love to get their new book at Kinokuniya! EEEE

Strangers, are just family you have yet to come to know.

2010-03-01T12:36:00.007+08:00

30 things I would like to do before turning 30.

01. Ride a scooter in the rain.
02. Scuba-diving.
03. Get a job with a pay above 5k.
04. Travel to Amsterdam with company.
05. Spend a month at Japan.
06. Get a pet cat[Tiffanie/British Shorthair!]
07. Try brazilian waxing.
08. Surfing at Hawaii.
09. Knit like a pro.
10. Get a degree at Central Saint Martins.
11. Be comfortable in >five-inch heels.
12. Hug a sumo.
13. Have long luxurious hair.
14. Let my pet cat play with my goldfish.
15. Cycle with a dress on.
16. Bake yummy egg tarts.
17. Catch a Tokio Hotel concert live.
18. Tie two ponytails and walk down Orchard.
19. Birthday Bash.
20. Hug my family.
21. Eat gummies only for a day.
22. Get a Hermes Birkin.
23. Go kite flying.
24. Design fashion.
25. Laugh at Johnny Depp when he's 70+.
26. Stay awake for two full days.
27. Peel potatoes in front of the tv whilst watching Titanic.
28. Create my own potato chips.
29. Borrow toothpaste from my new neighbour.
30. Have good sex.

2010-02-19T11:21:00.001+08:00

God, Numb this pain.

I left doubtfully, you left certainly.

2010-02-09T12:49:00.003+08:00

All I hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop

Oh baby, tell me why'd you have to go

'Cause this pain I feel it won't go away

And today I'm officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache, I could escape

But I've fronted long enough to know

There ain't no way

And today I'm officially missing you

Can't nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do, hey, baby

Said it stays on my mind

And I'm officially...

All I do is lay around, two years full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all

Well, I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say

that I'm officially missing you

[Tamia's Officially Missing You]

Throw me a rubber ring, honey.

2010-02-02T11:11:00.001+08:00

This got to be the most torturing holiday ever.

The unspoken truth.

2010-01-18T12:07:00.005+08:00

Seeing the days nearing to my poly days, my mum is quite worried for me. Not for my studies but rather my clothes. Yes- Wow. My wardrobe is expanding with much thanks to her, my sis slimming waistline to pass off her [squeals] "it's-too-big-for-me!" items onto me and my deep indulgence with shopping nowadays. I have never shared one of my greatest passion-fashion, here before so it feels kinda, erm, weird. Heh.

I admit I'm a very style-conscious person. From the packaging of my milk carton to the design of that book cover, it was always hunting for the pageant-worthy one. For clothing, I tend to stick to monochrome [probably a great disease my mum has infected me with], and more to the rock kind of style. However, recently I have been veering off to girly, summer looks, stocking up on dresses, skirts and flora prints. My inner woman-ness is growing her way out. Hahah:D OH and my next buy will be: a straw-boater hat! I am not very much into trends and I hate it when people overrates them (Eg. My Mudder) 'cause you will keep seeing the same thing whenever you give your head a 90degree turn on the streets. Of course, there are times where there will be nice trends ,like strong shoulders ♥, thus it is worth a try. I remembered I got my first pair of leggings when I was Primary5. It was black and white striped and I have never wore it out before. Hahah! It was too hilarious and ugly to be seen! And I don't wear leggings anymore except when I'm in a winter country. Stockings are way better than the overused leggings.

Now, I see many people doing the HipHop/Hippie style or is it just me noticing them more? But still, I love them! I've always think that it's very cool and will always do so as it's a style which allows you to experiment with pop colours daringly and excessively.

If there's a chance, I would love to meet my all-time favourite fashion designer, MarcJacobs!! Tons of love for all his collections and the reputable LouisVuitton runways looks. His works are simply stunning and geniusly creative! I shall be a paparazzi next time and hold one job which is to stalk him! (Y) Hahah ^^

Oh, and I want to get these pair of shoes I've been lusting for so long..! Zan!

Fry me till I'm golden crisp, then I shall go crunch in your mouth.

2010-01-12T14:22:00.004+08:00

So a sucky sixteen and a thirfty twelve. I kinda expect I won't do so well as obviously I didn't put in my best. Wasn't in a good state back then, with a family environment that's certainly not condusive to study in. I am not using this as an excuse for the poor results I've got but it's a factor though. And I am really furious that that is a problem for me. But it all comes down to me too, being involve in a silly relationship which takes up like about 30% of the mind, leaving 70% to cut up into fractions for eight subs. It isn't worth it, honestly. I guess I have come a long way being really independent in my studies and scoring a low average is just barely passing my satisfaction. Those kids with all the support they have are truly blessed. Those love,care and concern showered upon them certainly made rage and jealously ran over me like a bullet train. [Hahah] However. I thank those who have been my emotional lift, the care they've shown still makes tears trickle down my cheeks. I am just really sorry for being a disappointment if you've ever believed that I have the potential to do well.

At least, I am delighted to be eligible for the course that I would totally be suck in to do. I will strive to do well in poly and hopefully be a graduate at Central Saint Martins. Never will I give up my ambition to be a designer and pursue the love of my life- arts. I remember telling people my first ambition was to be an artist. What I faced was just belly of laughters and the same old sentence of," Will you be able to feed yourself with that kind of career?" Being young, I thought I was naive too to actually think that I would want to have such a career so the thought of wanting to be an artist eventually subsided. See, money is always the root of all evil. Money was never a goal for me but we all know the importance of it. That's how we get those Hermes, Prada and first-class air tickets. {Dreamy}

I am happy for my friends who have done well (in my opinion) and hope that they will too, live their dreams soon. It was a joy to be together for the past few years, whatever we've shared will always be a treasured memory. Now that we are going our seperate ways, I will truly miss you guys. Many rewinding of those scene of crazyness and cheeks-blushing encounters. [Cliche ttm! but it's true!] All in all, let's endeavour forever. May we cheers to our success soon.

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I can't help it. I want school to start soon!

2010-01-04T10:22:00.003+08:00

My long awaited 2010 has finally began, rounding off 2009 nicely. 2009 was hell yeah crazy. Stressing out for Os, end my secondary school days, love the one I love, then lose the one I love, great company of friends I had, huge accomplishment of shedding off five kilos, dropping two sizes down, got a full-time job and hating it. Quite a lovely year to say.

Gosh, 2010 just started off by bombing me with so many activities for the first week already. Let's see, Kbox last Sat-missed, Tuesday-4/5 bbq, Thursday-Baking at Chloe's,Friday/Saturday- Poly visits and somewhere along this week, my final injection appointment. Great.

I am not a person that's good at keeping my new year's resolution in my ever-now-rotting-brain or my heart. That's why I am not penning down any. But all I'm setting for this new year is I am going to chase my dream to the fullest, make friendships lasting, be faithful and make a life out of my life. And of course, every year I pray for a better family which doesn't ever get any better. So I am most probably not giving a damn, let fate decide, leave that fucked up shithole- if I can.

What I probably fear most is back. Howww. How am I going to face it. Put up a smile, bottle up the past and hurl it out of the window? It's going to be hard on me, I really hope not.

Fear, let's not meet.

Countdown!

2010-01-03T21:47:00.011+08:00

On that wheelchair, push me down the stairs.

2009-12-21T13:45:00.006+08:00

As quick as it came, December is finally ending! Which means getting my pay$$!! after dreading work each and every day. I think Santa soul has just gotten into me. I want to get gifts for my guardians at work. Thank them and all for their invaluable teachings and care. Smack a "Love ya guys all" and sayonara office! Also, I'm wondering what gift should I get for Celine over at Switz. If I post it today, I might make it in time for Christmas but I have not even choose her gift yet ><>

Hopefully, next year I can join SOW and start learning the acoustic guitar :D Next year, marks a fresh beginning and I really can't wait for it to start. I've decided to take up visual communications and media design at SP since TP is off the limits. [Really sad about it ): ] Why are you so FAR TP? I like the West for its peace and calmness but I think fun is at the East. Jeremy just told me ytd that he doesn't like the West. He thinks it's too slow, like wtf? Hahah, quite true anw. And he even said that, when he gets married, he will never go West! He'll find a house and live at the East. Such biasness :[

Haven't seen clique for a long long while. Really hope we can meet up soon, see how's everyone is doing and check out Chen's new braces! MmmmMmm! You do not know how much I'm missing you guys!

Come back & hold me close again.

2009-12-17T14:01:00.003+08:00

I need to leave this missing avenue. But who's here to take my hand and go.

Hosanna-

2009-12-08T15:49:00.004+08:00

Was digging back into my archives, searching for photos, any, to paste them on my scrapbook. Through it, I read some of my past entries and realised how wild I was back then. Hurling vulgarities here and there, even scolding MrC a bigfata____, can't remember why. [Lol] Not that I'm any less vulgar right now, but I don't go around spitting a fuck [on my blog] so easily. Age does wonders eh?
I feel that I have grown quieter, less fun and stricter. It's like this evolution into an adult character, uncomfortable yet adjustable. I feel distant from the people I'm close with. Somehow, they are more pleasing to watch from far than to get front-row tickets. The sounds ring clear in my ears but the image is blurred and fading. I don't know why I'm feeling this way, maybe it's the inner woman-to-be that's calling out for real independence. The inner one crawling her way out, slaying past anything in her way. Fierce.
Honestly, I'm disconsolated. I can't get what I want in my life. No, not materially of course. I yearn for so many things, things for a better being. Or rather an ideal life. Whatever that's out against me, I fear for a full frontal war. I don't like chickening out but I hate what's left for me to salvage and cry for that puncture in the chest.
I want to get a life out of the washing machine. This ride is tiring enough.

Christmas is approaching, I better be merry.

Are you refering to me?

2009-12-07T14:21:00.003+08:00

I'm back to the hot tropics for only three days yet it feels far more than that. Had loads of fun at China, seriously. Lived in a suite, no changing of hotels and with a mall right next to the hotel. (It's only a 1min walk) Hahah, so we had supermarket trips every night, with me stocking up on chewing gum endlessly and getting different kinds of fruit every night.

Historic places were breathtaking and the palaces are really gorgeous. [Check out my photos on facebook!] What I love most was going to this food street where they sold crazy food. Eg. Black Spiders, seahorses, grasshoppers, lizards and silkworm. All fried and looking crunchy:] Yeah, I did eat ONE silkworm. It was probably the most horrific, terrifying and insane act. It was all soft & mushy, though there's this solid piece in the middle which I had to spit it out, which I believe it's the worm's heart. Freak. This is what I really call an unforgettable experience.

Oh and I walked (part of) the Great Wall of China! Damn tiring luh as I had to capture photos and climb those gigantic steps at the same time. Literally breathtaking, like take my breath away and squeeze my lungs hard. Gosh, those chinese got screws up in their head man.

And to break a record, I dropped my slr. I can be certain that almost everyone around me gasped when they heard the- plonk. Thank god for the lens protector, but it seem to be stuck now. I can't unscrew it. x_x What's worst is that my macro lens has moisture in it and I didn't even get to use it once to take a proper photo! Erugh.

I'm a big failure at ChubbyBunny. Died at four. Okay, maybe it's because I was laughing half the time. Lol :} I cannot. believe that WernLi can do 14. Impossible. Totally impossible. I bet it's not the RockyMountains', it's got to be like the size of Muji's marshmallows! If not, then she's truly amazing. Knees down, hands up and down, and worship her man.

I need photography classes. And get out of this freaking job in the office.
It's killing my back, my neck, my talents, my brain.

i want to know you all over again.

2009-12-06T22:36:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I'm still not over it.

Oh no.

D5000

2009-11-25T13:04:00.003+08:00

I've got my SLR yesterday! Whooo! Also with macro+micro lenses. Awesome stuff :D
I am hell yeah, happy. Have not taken any proper pictures with it yet 'cause I'm studying it first. Need to do it before friday, before leaving for Chinaaaa! I was hoping that dear Mr. Philip will teach me more about it. But argh, he's in re-service. T.T shall find him after my China trip then:]
Daddy doesn't want to get me the tripod. Lol. Thinks that lenses are more practical. *nods*
&! I love, simply LOVE, the bag it comes with. Totally rocking my socks. Hahah!

I don't why. But I am pretty excited about going to China. Hehe. Probably the crazy food (eg. Fried Crickets), the MaoZheDong Tees! So gonna get them! And of course, fantastic scenery & the bizzare weather. It's freaking cold there now. Shit, my winter coat, the ultra protective one, is not even in my luggage. Two reasons: 1. I hate the colour (always), 2.It's fugly. Yep. But BO BIAN, need to bring. @_@ Can't find my comfy socks too... :[
Will be able away till the third. Which means I will be missing a rocking concert at church D:! The band only comes to Sg like once every two years? Awwww, dang.

Plus after my trip, I'm going to hunt for some classes like guitar & hiphop dancing. Hahah! Who wants to join me eh? Holidays are just so heavenly~

Fickle Fickle Fickle Minded.

2009-11-20T10:40:00.005+08:00

Went to church yesterday. The atmosphere was great. And yeah, I do love it.
I'm thinking. God seems like he wants me to be part of his family, yet not at the same time? I mean, I've always been close to God but not close enough to see him, to feel him. When I was young, I attended a christian elmentary school, grew up knowing all about God, sang praises, and prayed before we ate. I read the bible almost every night(until my dad threw it away) & prayed to him before I go sleep. The bible is probably the best book I've ever read. If only I can find that exact copy again:/ Then, entering primary school, I left God. No bible, no prayers. But my best friend was a christian. In a way, God didn't leave me. St Marg's was a whole new environment. There, I got to reconnect with Jesus again. Although not as faithful as I was when I'm young, it somehow felt good to have him back in my life again. And Tiffany was like God's shadow over me. Now leaving St Marg's, I thought it would be another Dejavu. No, 'cause God sent Edward. Truly blessed am I to have known him, and my journay to faith has not end yet. Thank you.

Life has been a tumultuous experience when I was young. I never knew by putting my faith in god would make me happier. Well, maybe.
I can't wait for next year to come!

DEEDEE

2009-11-19T14:32:00.003+08:00

Okay, so it's approx 4hrs away to prom. I'm hungry. I want to feast. But maybe not. I hope it's not buffet style. I don't like to keep getting up to take food, troublesome. Eh. Actually I don't mind too 'cause you won't have to finish a certain amount of food on that plate in front of you. Then people around that table of yours, okay MINE, will shake their heads and go TskTsk when I gave my food a chew. Just one chew. Plus, I drink super duper slow. Lol. I am a camel la.

Am I excited? No Yes No Yes NO. The thing is I can't wait to see my friends and the outfit they will be in. The way you dress actually tells what kind of style you like and maybe the kind of character you will have. Observing people is second nature to me. [I AM NOT A PERVERT, if that ever pops into your mind.] I can sit on a bench, at some bustling street and see what people wear. Select some of my favourites. Then love them. Hahah. Maybe I would pursue street fashion photography as my second career :D Fun. I will then be Singapore's very own Facehunter. Great!

I have not posted this since just now and it's 0330 now. Hehe. I think my nails are scary. They look like some evil bitch's nails. Yet. It looks so rocky and out of the world at the same time. I think I will start makeuping now.

Bloody hell weather, will you STOP pouring?

Kill me, time.

2009-11-16T15:49:00.005+08:00

I had a dream. A almost weird and unexpected one. One that confirmed my doubts. Yet, when I woke up, I was emotionless, wondering how that dream ever came about. Maybe it was too much of worried thinking in the day that god sent a dream to stop, save and cure me from it. The departure was so sudden and too early. Was it suppose to be an instant escape? Or a I-don't-want-to-have-any-relations-with-you leave? I don't know and I do not want to know.

I thought that burying my head in that mountain of work will numb my pain and hide my sorrows. I thought it was a right decision. I thought- I had nothing to lose. Yes, I do regret a little. But can I take back the dice which I had just thrown? And the odds which shows, does not favour me at all. Didn't I plan all of these? It worked, didn't it?

I guess, in short, I'm still missing you.
Sigh,
stopthis,stopthis,stopthis

DOUBLE GUESS WHAT!!

2009-11-05T22:44:00.005+08:00

I SAW ASHLEY ISHAM TODAY. Outside Ion Orchard. Oh my god. Simply omg. I never know how it feels like being so up close to an international fashion designer but just now I've got a taste of it. For your information, Ashley Isham is Singapore's very own, internationally-acclaimed fashion designer. Although I didn't really like his dresses that I got a sneak peek at Wisma, I do respect him a lot. How far can a fashion designer from Singapore go? He just proves it all. Oh yeah, he's down right freaking size double zero and he was carrying a Hermes, deep dark midnight blue, just the way I like it. AND I bet he gave me a glance or maybe more like a head-to-toe scan of my outfit when we walked past each other. I guess that's what fashion designers do, they don't even care to look at your face first -_- I wasn't well-dressed duh. Short jeans, singlet, an oversize pullover with red vans.

okay...

2009-10-27T21:36:00.003+08:00

Why do I always get disadvantaged over almost everything? Sick and everything's in a mess. Who knew it would turn out this way. I know your attitude. Come, threaten me all you want. See, think or speak ill of me in anyway for I seriously do not give a damn anymore. All I know is I do not have any intention of hurting you.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'M PISSED.

To be or not to be.

2009-10-22T20:33:00.004+08:00

I am going to O levels with a partially zonk out brain, panda eyes, a tummy with red bull and mochi ice cream in it, my just-claimed-lucky yellow underwear, half a mind on my dad who's in Japan ( God, please make sure Daddy get his hands on those headphones), another quarter on a friend I dont know how to deal with, smelly armpits and a ultra super cute, dyed hairdo.

Oh yeah, I'm prepared.

Sup.

2009-10-15T19:11:00.005+08:00

Grad photos on Facebook.

Sorry for the wait.

2009-10-06T18:48:00.002+08:00

Thank You Mr Chua, Nichola, Fong Yee & Sonia for the words of encouragement and concern.

Really appreciate it :] Am picking myself up now.

Love ya!

2009-10-02T17:28:00.001+08:00

Hey guys, my phone is currently not with me :/ so please contact me via mail or my house no. Thanks peeps.

2009-09-25T21:21:00.004+08:00

I often ask myself why now and why so inappropriate. The thought of having failed my chem MCQ is heart wrenching enough. (Yes, I. Failed. Chem. Mcq.) 'Yay'. Oh and not to forget my chinese, failing for the Nth consecutive time. Double whoopee. Double screwed. To top everything off, I BET english is gonna plunge a knife through my chest, dig my heart out, leaving me with a wordless misery. As though a curtain fell on a lit stage: all the excitement, all my hopes and happiness were extinguished at a stroke, and I stood there in the darkness, and the glorious spell was broken... Haa- Oh well :/

Everything seems to be slipping out of control.

Damn.

I can't believe you actually fucked.

2009-09-23T21:11:00.003+08:00

ROFLMAO.

results of getting too bored. Never try. Uhm.

Hey LT! I know you miss me lots! Dumping as many pictures as possible here for you!

2009-09-19T23:50:00.002+08:00

The day I died was the best day of my life.

2009-09-18T14:51:00.001+08:00

So maybe it was an impulse. Caught right in a halt. What do I have for you? Apologies and some more? Held my tongue to not say sorry, just as I promised. But it's tough, especially when it's my fault. Maybe that's why I cried. (Hell to those eyebags.)

You are so fucking cute. So squish-able, pokeable and kissable.

Get fat please.

2009-08-01T22:11:00.001+08:00

Miss Me Yeah.

Quack.

2009-06-08T20:57:00.005+08:00

New view, new angle, new seat. I kinda have no complaints about it except for the fact that I do feel isolated at times. :/

I am sure gonna miss sweet lil' Shan and amusing aunty Belly who have gone to the other far end of the class. And also dear Britney Lee who seems so front right now! I don't think i'll miss sister sonia 'cause I still can talk to her over Irene's head. hahah! And definitely not Tiffany who is only a duck away from me. But I will miss those times when I can just turn around and play poker with my friends or easily do grpwork together. Sad, huh?

I think I'm irritating wangyee rather than she is to me 'cause I started singing her the hokey pokey song before math lesson and throwing rubbish sentences at her randomly. :D, fun. I am glad there is still somebody that I can communicate well with to teach me whatever I don't understand, though I still prefer sister sonia as my teacher. Hee, I shall see.

Oh wells, I can't wait for celine to mail me soon! I hope she has reached home safe and sound.

To switzerland,

2009-06-07T22:02:00.000+08:00

Bye cheeze, I'll miss you.

let me tell you how small my appetite is...

2009-06-06T15:31:00.002+08:00

I ate one whole mango for lunch!

and felt like puking after I've finished half of it, the mango was ginormous (to me)

I'm going to do my heymath today~ hee.

Things just never go your way.

2009-05-28T21:13:00.002+08:00

HOLY SHIT.

I found a pregnancy test kit in my sister's bag.

what in the world...

So true.

2009-05-27T20:47:00.004+08:00

I think its been a pretty long time since i've neglected this space. My most sincere apologies. To actwithcaution, of course. I've stuck with this name for like 3 years(?), which is considered long, 'cause simply I like it.

I learnt lots of things from Teacher Isabelly today. About none other than her favourite topic- Body issues. I didn't know she use some fat-burning cream, or even if this thing did existed, I was amused by her the whole day and sonia with her non-stop squeezing of her thighs and calves. Lol, I have interesting people sitting next to me who do not solely care about academics (in class). And hello, i'm not a drag queen/brag queen/whatsoever. It's just typical girls if you do not know.

Speaking of academics, Myes was a (unexpected) flop. Freaking four failed subjects and if they didn't add the 5marks to my english, it would be freaking five failed subjects. Ha-ha-. Actually not. I dont know. I think i'm like so screwed? I wonder if I'm dumb or my brain tumor has grown to a massive size that it has taken over my brain. In other words, i'm using my brain tumor to think, which is kinda brainless. No, it IS. Sigh. I don't want to talk to chualala. I think it'll be scary. Probably i'll get some big thrashing from him. L1R5-34= ITE. Holy macaroni.

I've just recieved RP's erm, what do you call that? Catalog? DID YOU RECEIVE IT? I was thinking whether they only send them to cannot-make-it-students. Eg, me. But I'll seriously never ever go there. I will be some big failure please.

Oh wells, I wonder what I'm here for?
I'm drawing a blank.

Ps. I heard there is some hair-growth shampoo out there. If you see it, please tell me asap, I need it desperately. My hair is horrible and simply disgusting. AND I DID NOT REQUEST FOR IT. I so do not want to look like a bunk/bi/les/sth. I am a girl if you cannot differentiate between the two sexes. So if you do find it, please be a kind soul and kindly tell me the location of it. I will surely kiss you, hug you and love you to bits.

On a lighter note, I MAY be opening a blogshop(more like a livejournalshop)! If that Japan supplier can be found. Yay :D

GRZZMEOWARZZ.

2009-04-23T20:18:00.003+08:00

I hate self-pity.

yhelp.

Truth is, i'm done pretending.

2009-03-25T21:33:00.002+08:00

Break.

2009-03-18T20:16:00.002+08:00

I am sure almost everbody has heard of the tiger prawn news thing, dumb americans being cheated, whatnots. Lol. Still, headed down to newton ytd to enjoy lovely satay,chicken wings,fish porridge and stingray. It's so funny to see how seafood holders compete with one another to get customers. (giggles) Almost immediately when we sat down, one gay guy hurried over and "offered" to wipe our table stained with chilli sauce.
Gayguy: "Careful arh, there's lots of chilli sauce here"
"and do take a look at our menu~"
Every man's move has a motive and this one is so clearly obvious that I coudn't burst out laughing. Way too obvious, sir. Pity them. Competiton is really fierce there.
Newton food centre is haunted too! Someone hang a teletubby at one of the shaded seats and it's PO! It's RED. you know red, red you know, geddit!? Rofl. Bet the guy sitting under it didn't know. Hope that when he stands, his head will hit Po and he'll freak out. It really looks scary, seeing the way how Po is being hang, at the circle on top of it's head. :/ lol

Pixel art is hard! Can't really do it well, panda looks distorted. Eugh.

Do check out NOISE at Far East Plaza! It's really cool!

To the limits

2009-03-16T17:18:00.003+08:00

I always come to blogger with an empty head, explaining my multiple short posts.
So Hi.

Minutes ago. Logged into edulearn. Moved my mouse. Saw Miaw. Clicked.
*JAWS DROPPED* wtmfsobfaaumeow. I wonder what in the world is she thinking!? Hell loads of stuff to do man, amounting to my already-mountained-cheena work. Gosh, holiday is always an illusion, performed by well-trained copperfields in school. They are senseless, spiritless, humanless. MY POST-IT CANT EVEN FILL UP ALL HER WORK. That's how bad it is.

Plus, my stupid laoshi gave us four essays and two paper two to do for hol, not forgetting I still have long overdued last year Hol Hmk, plus zillions of blank worksheets that are supposed to be filed.

D; I'm sick. Again. Though I'm already in shirt, hoodie and a comforter coiled around me, i'm still shivering. The weather is not helping either. Cool, chilly, cold. I'm getting sick so often nowadays. What's wrong, I'm dying :/?

Shall start doing my work now and quit facebooking.
I need a break. How I wish not kitkat.

Gosh.

2009-03-14T20:52:00.004+08:00

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sick. Again.

holy smackeroos!

2009-03-12T21:03:00.001+08:00

satisfaction.

2009-03-02T22:03:00.002+08:00

HI HI, BYE BYE.

( current inspiration: nude bodies)

Bzzt.

2009-02-25T07:21:00.004+08:00

Morning.

my hair is in a mess the way i don't like it. I look like a zombie. My eyebags seemed to grew bigger. I'll be mistaken for a witch. I have tuition later. I can't open a single thing on edulearn. I can't do anything. I am wasting my time. I don't what to do now. I have done a single tuition homework.This sucks.This sucks.This sucks.

I realised that my fonts are relatively small even when they are normal.

something new out of something old.

2009-02-24T13:44:00.002+08:00

Rant.

The whole smss popultaion would probably do that on thursday. Teachers would be squeezing their faces, shutting their ears up or jumping up and down (which chualala would probably do) due to excessive high level of whining and complaints that would be received. Oh boy, can't wait :D what fun it's going to be.

The whole idea of having us doing our work at home is purely stupid. It is a shit idea from a person living in a shithole. All they are concerned is us doing our work, work, work. Come on, the internet needs a break too. At 0730, the whole school signed in to edulearn and jammed the networks, very effective huh.

I would rather go to school duh. Lesser homework might be given too.
Oh wells, brainless.

I'm going to check out salvation army later :) My dear old traditional and supertitious mum warned me not to buy anything 'cause she said that the things there are from people of the past and their families dump it there, so if I buy the things there, their spirit/souls/whatever will follow me back home. -o-''' yes, Lmao. It must be the late night shows airing on the telly recently that just brainwashed her. Out of randomness just now, she told me that she watched this documentary on tv, on how dead people's organ are extracted out then preserved and put it back into their bodies. Hearing it was gross but her actions were super amusing:D Lol.

Sigh. "_" I am not prepared for Os and neither have I started studying. Centaine was asking me week after week whether I have studied and I said I will next week, then the next, the next again. Oh and the poor girl can't come for training for 3weeks. ): Plus she seemed to lost alot alot of weight. Oh no, she's like so skinny already! "Get well soon yeah, I have lots to share with you especially on chetnut. She's becoming a joy (sometimes) in training. Hahah!"

The weather looks gloomy. so am I.

& Sometimes I wish I can save you.
Tell me you won't give up. "

watch it, you are on candid.

2009-02-15T21:07:00.003+08:00

Yay :D I finally got the oasis album that I've been dying to get it for a very long time. It was like only 13+bucks!? wth, thank god I didn't buy it earlier. Saw The Frays's new album; Omggg, so wanna have it.

Got my instax, whoopee. I figured it's my last year at smss, I shall make the most out of it. So If one day, I come up to you with my cam, Fugly, and say," come take a picture with me!" , please don't be dumbfounded or be still as a tree and thinks Mad is insane/krazeee. Yes, my cam is named- Fugly, 'cause simply it's fugly and ginourmous. I hope the one film left inside is not rotting or decaying/sth. :/?

I feel bad D: I have not done any productive work, besides amath hmk. But I felt quite proud of myself as I have set my goals for MYE and thinks that it's quite achievable, provided I work hard for it. Um, i'm kinda determined. [ Think so >< ]

Ahh fuck, I FORGOT FOR THE ZILLIONTH TIME TO BUY MY TONER.

Shoots.

Someone, Save my brain.

moving still.

2009-02-08T19:11:00.003+08:00

Sigh. Flu just worsened into cough. Feeling more sick than ever. Oh god, I just hope that I won't screw up my presentation tmr and hopefully, my brain won't get jammed during mrt.

Dear oh dear.

. . .

2009-02-02T19:57:00.002+08:00

this blank feeling

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02/02/09

woah,

didn't i just blinked my eye?

Weary.

2009-01-23T21:24:00.002+08:00

I feel the no-life season approaching so soon. School's been spinning continuously, knocking me out pretty soon.

Perfect Illusion.

2009-01-11T14:42:00.003+08:00

White.

Pale and shivering.

Water flooded my hands.

Hair standing on its ends.

Red.

Bloody and warm.

Gushing through my brains.

Pressing against my veins.

Blue.

Cold and cool.

Inked on the paper.

Flowed down like a river.

Blank.

My face showed so.

And bless my soul

for I'll be collecting my O.

Speedy.

2009-01-11T00:26:00.002+08:00

11th day of the year.

oh and, Happy Birthday Perlyn :D

i know it's early.

2008-12-24T22:24:00.002+08:00

To All,

Merry Christmas.

dear santa,

2008-12-24T22:02:00.001+08:00

This Christmas, I met an angel.

His name is Uncle Tan.

Bless that kind soul

and may all evil befall on the bad.

a scene like never before.

2008-12-24T21:29:00.005+08:00

cheese, Europe was definitely awesome. Visited lotsa churches, which all of them are pretty amazingly built, grand sturcture and all. Love the chilly cold weather there! shopping was so-so, not much though. The best thing was huddling up in the hotel at night, playing subway and slapjack. hahah, yeah it was totally fun :D shall post the pics when i'm not lazy.

Take the spotlight.

2008-11-30T19:36:00.008+08:00

I thought I caught the flu bug from sisee so I immediately suck on VapourDrops and munch down two apples. Scary. I think inside me, somewhere, they are still battling with the evil deadly virus. I can't afford to fall sick now >:[ ! Otherwise it will just ruin my whole holiday, and I certainly dont want it to.

I can't believe I'm leaving soon! Can't wait to erupt in joy when I reach France, gorgeous place and sexy accent. Teehee:) You know what, my parents will be sitting in the buisness class while me and sisee will be in economy -o-. Argh, shall bear with the aching ass.

Just dumped in seven full albums into ipod and am delighted that I finally found a nice silicon cover for Hiccie! Hahah, and I just busted 70+bucks on cds. Anyway, I've got my salary!

Wanting to go on topshop spree but I shall do it in europe, they said clothes are cheaper and nicer there(?!) and when we go switzerland, we must buy their watches, man-made ones, real good and real fire in pockets. We are mostly done with our packing and the people that are going with us have not even started packing. So the aunties yesterday were yanking that my mum is so k-i-a-s-u, which is so true.

I have not started on any homework except the hundred phrases thingy which I doubt I have at least 10 of them. Plus I have not started studying or revising, I am afraid I will lag behind next year. Speaking of this, I just realise I'll be collecting my chinese Os results next year. Yikes. Actually, I feel there is nothing to fear, normal/higher chinese, i still think that my standard of chinese is still blahh, excpet my mom will be ranting non-stop that I am such a loser at studying, which is kinda true. Well, I gave my best shot. Hell yeah nuthead.

Will be in town tmr and for a long time, donning a skirt. o_-

catch me if you can. Hee :D

no one gives a damn.

2008-11-26T09:22:00.001+08:00

I rather be an African kid and die of hunger

instead of being here and die of anger and frustration.

This totally sucks.

I'm HAPPY.

2008-11-20T12:45:00.005+08:00

This is the first time I'm delighted that my red tsunami has came. My mom has been ranting for the past few weeks, saying that I must be pregnant and wondered that I had sex with some bangalala. She's just afraid that the red tsunami will come during our europe trip 'cause it will be velly velly troublesome. Yes, she's that sharp-tongue. Hahah, I guess I'll be able to enjoy my holiday after all ;D I think the reason why red tsunami didn't come was 'cause I was like on-off diet. Not enough nutriton to produce blood? LOL, like sonia, so skinny, no wonder it's like three months, three months-kind. I hope she doesn't mind me blogging about her facts ><

Anyway I have enough nutrition to produce red liquid is all thanks to the fact that I'm working. Ever since I started working, I've been eating THREE FULL MEALS a day! Furthermore snacking in between lunch and dinner. And later I am junking in MacFries, omg. I bet my blubber in my legs is stocking up. I don't know why all my fats goes to my legs, maybe it's because I always stand after dinner? Maybe next time after my meal, I shall try to balance on my hands then probably it will fatten up the area at my ribs a little. It's freaky to see ribs protuding out, I think it's looks kinda disgutingxz too. I need to exercise soon, my ass seems to be glued to the chair and my eyes to the computer. Oh and I was telling chen just now I have a fuzzy azz. Hee :)

My bangs are going left and I don't like it. Am trying to make it go right.

I want to go liang court soon to check out whther Atsuki is having the bag that I have been wanting to buy for a year. -.^ Shall go this sunday after collecting pocket money.

I have been thinking whether should I buy a Ds using my salary to fill in my empty Ds cover. Hahah, I wonder how much I have earn so far. I should be earning 540bucks for two weeks. WooHoo! sounds alot of $_$. Need to study soon, have been neglecting my studies for quite some time.

Oh, and I owe mum 50bucks
but she owe me a K.
Maybe I should sell her back the lv and get my 500 back.
my New Year's ang bao money all gone into that bag leh!
no wonder I feel kinda bankrupt all year.

It's bitch's birthday.

2008-11-19T09:07:00.001+08:00

I forgot today is my mom's birthday, untill my sister said it.

well,

Happy Birthday Mom.

I still think you are a bitch, a jerk, an asshole, a sucker and a money-face.

Hope you age faster :D

I have lots of Blubber.

2008-11-18T12:54:00.002+08:00

I swear figures are spinning inside my mind right now. Oh gawd, I have this huge chunk of data to key in and the air-conditioner, which is hovering above me, is sucking up every moisture I have so I apparently look like a ghost now. Pale white and dried up one.

Edulearn is pissing me off. With every reply on the Ethunasia ding ding, they will send an email to me. Whathefuck la, and everybody has to make two comments which amounts to 82 emails! Oh man, if I knew this I would not be the first to post >:( anyway, Tiffany will be returning on the 22nd and the forum will be closed on the 21st(i think) which means she's gonna miss it. uh-oh, no good. And when I was chatting with her just now, she didnt know of such a homework. !?

oh! JK Rowling is publishing a new book, 'the beetle and the barb' or something like, can't really remember. It's actually the book that Dumbeldore gave to Hermonie after he died. Pre-order it at popular bookstores for $10 only! I'm going to do so later if I can, need to satisfy curiousity what that book is all about. :D Hee.

no more coffee talk, need to get back to work D: D:D:
sigh.

two weeks left, bear with it!

Addictive hero.

2008-11-17T17:08:00.003+08:00

Short Indian guy: "Ey, lady or boy?"
Tall Indian guy: *gives a glance* "Boy."

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH

King Adora

2008-11-14T15:17:00.003+08:00

Listen, this is one big bully.

King Adora-Big isn't beautiful.